I’m began my weight loss journey back in late March. To be honest, it was daunting to begin because I knew I had tried and failed so many times before. But, this time, something is really clicking with me. I don’t believe it is anything more than a great support system (Thanks Beachbody), a better understanding and constant learning curve for my meals (Thanks to the Trim Healthy Mama book), and exercise (again Thanks Beachbody).
So, my first post is going to be the brutal honest truth, because I cannot afford to hide behind facades.
I promised I would be vulnerable and be up front and honest and it is true. Hiding from things in life gets you no where. Although I will be posting some things as they happen and others in arrears, I wanted to share this.
Here they are, my feet in all their glory. No really, it’s my first weigh in. This is my starting weight on 3/23/2015.
At that moment, I penned this…They say your weight… doesn’t define you. That your size, and measurements don’t. But I think this morning is I’ve come to the realization ~ that those words are spoken by people who aren’t heavy or big or haven’t experienced it. Because these numbers do define me. They make me decide whether I am worthy to receive the love and attention of others. They define how my day will go and my attitude toward myself. They define a lot more of me then they should. And with God’s help that ends today.
And so, on that Monday morning two short months ago I began my journey. My before pictures show the beginning. I was smiling even though on the inside I felt like crying.
And just to add agony to those beginning pictures which my husband Shane took, I asked him to also take my measurements. Talk about humbling. Ever told your husband your true measurements and your weight. I know now, and I knew then that he loved me no matter what size clothes I wore or the weight I carried. But, it was still humbling and embarrassing to look at the numbers and realize I had let myself slip really far from where I once was.
So, in the vein of full disclosure, I also share my beginning measurements. Because, they aren’t pretty and I will no longer let them define me.
Bust 46″
Waist 45.5″
Hips 49.5″
Thigh 25″
Perhaps, you need to embrace your numbers too. After all, they are only a starting point as they were for me. They simply give you a gauge of how far you have come and how far you have to go. I encourage you to embrace your numbers, and to be open and honest about them. Because setting them free is an amazing experience {I can say this now, I could not say this on March 23rd}.
