2016 has not been the best year for me, or for my family. I am constantly reminded that God is in control of each and every situation, especially those I cannot control. This meme has become basically my motto since October. Because there has been a lot of wilderness experience for me. There have been rivers of tears shed and I’m sure there are more to come. I’m a realist and this has become my daily reality.
I find comfort in knowing this is a temporary season of testing and growth for my family and I. I’ll be honest and say, I often wish I had less trials in my life. Because the stories are long and endless in my short years of life. A therapist once said that I’d seen more than most 80 year old people had in their life during my short life ~ at that point I think I was in my late 20’s. Although I’m no longer in therapy, I do realize that everything has happened, and is currently happening to build my testimony and story that I can share and connect to others. I’m having to grow through these experiences, and depend on God more, which sometimes means pruning a person or thing from my life so that the growth can occur in another area. It’s not always easy, the pain is often hard to endure, but I ALWAYS make it to the next peak {and subsequent valley}.
I wish I could say life gets easier the older you get. I actually said in Sunday school this past weekend that I’ve learned this year to stop saying “it can’t get worse”, because it often does. And often when you find yourself to the point at which you will break, you somehow find the strength to carry on just one more second, one more minute, one more hour and one more day.
God did not promise days without pain, but He’s surely there through those days with us, carrying us when we feel like we have no strength to go on. Perhaps you are on your own journey as well, I write this to say you are not alone, keep looking up, and God is with you too. Even when it feels like we are alone on the journey, we are never alone. He is with us. <3
